The other day her phone call sent me to the bottom of the darkness. My heart ached for her, and wanted to reach through the phone and give her hug. I tried with my words to keep her calm, to let her know she was loved, and to let her know she is never alone. [...]
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Crying Music and Happy Faces
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Lyrics, Mothers, Music, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Resiliency, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, depression, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, mental health, molestation, understanding, tagged angel, Anger, Answer, Anxiety, Belief, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, depression, Emotions, Enablers, Evanescence, family, Fear, guilt, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Mothers, My Immortal, Non-Offending Parent, Resiliency, Sarah MacLachlan, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim on October 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Spinning Worlds…
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Fear, Hope, Incest, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Rape, Remember, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, empathy, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, mental health, molestation, understanding, tagged Anger, Anxiety, Belief, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, guilt, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim on October 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The world is spinning with no apparent exit. I search for a place to jump off, but even if I find it, I get pulled back in. My daughter is on an endless roller coaster ride of emotions and memories. The flashbacks have come back along with the nightmares. It is all brought back to [...]
Sliding Down into Darkness
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Justification, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, denial, depression, guilt, healing, love, mental health, molestation, tagged Anger, Anxiety, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, guilt, healing, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim on October 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The date passed and I did not even give it a thought. Things seemed to be going so well. Now, a month beyond that and I am sliding down into darkness. Fear invades my thoughts as I watch my daughter struggle with choices made and the past that raises its nasty head once again. She [...]
Helpful Site for Survivors of Sexual Abuse…
Posted in Belief, Bibliotherapy, Books, Choices, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Justification, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Rape, Remember, Resiliency, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, denial, depression, empathy, false memory, family, guilt, healing, humankind, love, memories, mental health, molestation, taking sides, understanding, tagged childhood sexual abuse, Emotions, Enablers, false memory, Fear, guilt, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim on May 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I just found the site “Let Go…Let Peace Come In Foundation.” It is for adult survivors of sexual abuse. I did not know it existed. A great resource for anyone whose life has been touched by sexual abuse in anyway…
Ending at 22
Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Resiliency, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, depression, family, guilt, humankind, memories, mental health, understanding, tagged Anger, Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, depression, Emotions, false memory, Fear, guilt, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, survivor, Survivors, Trust, Victim on April 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
On Friday, after coming into work I was called into a meeting. In this meeting we were told that one of our teaching assistants committed suicide on Thursday. Her father found her. She was 22 years old.
I had to shut all emotions off in order to greet and teach that day, but at the end [...]
The Counselor: A Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Belief, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Justification, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Rape, Remember, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, denial, depression, family, guilt, humankind, memories, mental health, molestation, sexual predator, understanding, tagged Anger, Anxiety, Belief, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, guilt, healing, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, survivor, Trust, Victim on April 20, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
My heart is tight and my emotions right at the brim of tears. The one person who my daughter trusted after her revelation and attempted suicide, turns out to be a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
Contingent upon my daughter’s release from the hospital/treatment program was the proof that she had an appointment with a therapist. They [...]
I’ve Seen the Needle…
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Art, Belief, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Lyrics, Mothers, Music, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, cutting, dads, denial, depression, guilt, healing, love, memories, mental health, molestation, tattoo, understanding, tagged childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, cutting, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, Fear, guilt, healing, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, tattoo on March 3, 2009 | 3 Comments »
The call comes in late at night. Once again the car is not working. After a bit of chat, the decision is to have it towed to the shop and she can borrow the truck. Her car is old, but she loves it. We pick her up at the shop and take her to the [...]
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This blog is the writings of a mother who finds out from her 23 year old daughter, that she was molested (from age 7 to age 11 or 12) by her dad and was told "Not to tell, especially not to tell your Mom." My heart aches and within this blog, and I hope to start a dialogue with other mothers who have gone through the same thing...Archives
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