Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Belief, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Justification, Keeping Secrets, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Remember, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Siblings, Sisters, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, control, dads, denial, empathy, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, mental health, molestation, religion, taking sides, understanding, tagged Anger, Anxiety, Belief, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, church, church of Christ, control, dads, Daughters, denial, Emotions, family, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, molestation, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Sisters, Suicide, Survivors, taking sides, Victim on January 2, 2009 | 2 Comments »
It is a new year and there will not be any more secrets. I am planning on divulging to my two oldest daughters more details that connect my ex-husband to the abuse of my youngest daughter. In the beginning I told them some of the connections and stated these connections provided enough facts to validate [...]
Read Full Post »
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Grandfathers, Hope, Incest, Justification, Life Stories, Losing Innocence, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Rape, Remember, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Siblings, Sisters, Suicide, Survivors, Trust, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, control, dads, denial, depression, empathy, family, grandchildren, guilt, healing, humankind, love, memories, mental health, molestation, religion, sexual predator, sin, taking sides, understanding, tagged Anger, aunts, Belief, childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, daugthers, disbelief, e-mail, empathy, hurt, lying, mental health, molestation, Mothers, nephews, nieces, non-offendign parent, Rape, Sexual Abuse on November 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I heard it in her voice as soon as she answered the phone.
“What is wrong?” I ask, not sure I can deal with the answer. I hear her gasping to clear her voice, to make it work and to get the words out.
“It’s about an awful e-mail I got from my Sissie.” Long pause as [...]
Read Full Post »
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Justification, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, control, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, religion, taking sides, tagged Anger, axiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, control, dads, Daughters, denail, depression, Emotions, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, taking sides, Victim on May 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am not the victim, but I am fighting for survival.
I am not the guilty, but I bear the pain.
I am not suicidal, but I understand it lure.
I am not ignorant, but I failed to know.
I am not the offender, but I bear the blame.
I am not religious, but I have faith.
I am not defeated, [...]
Read Full Post »
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Justification, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, control, dads, denial, depression, family, guilt, healing, memories, religion, sin, taking sides, tagged Add new tag, Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, church, church of Christ, control, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Enablers, family, Fear, guilt, Incest, Justification, Life Stories, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, religion, Sexual Abuse, sin on May 4, 2008 | 2 Comments »
He was a master of emotions. He doled out fear and anger like everyday water. I thought I was the only one who suffered from his emotional abuse, but now see the damage left on my daughters. The guilt with this recognition fills my soul as I realize I failed to protect them from his [...]
Read Full Post »
Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, family, healing, memories, taking sides, tagged childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, daughter, Daughters, denial, Incest, Life Stories, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors on January 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Smiles, humor, and independent. That is how I would describe my daughter at 5 years of age. She challenged those around her and had a strong sense of self. She was popular with her classmates and with classmates of her two siblings. In her journal she wrote and illustrated stories. Once she created a new [...]
Read Full Post »
