Crying Music and Happy Faces
October 30, 2009 by donottellalice
The other day her phone call sent me to the bottom of the darkness. My heart ached for her, and wanted to reach through the phone and give her hug. I tried with my words to keep her calm, to let her know she was loved, and to let her know she is never alone. She calmed down, but after we hung up, I fell apart.
That night as I drove to pick up my husband, I played my favorite crying songs. Sarah MacLachlan’s Angel and Answer, along with Evanescence’s My Immortal. They played as loud as I could handle and I sang just as last. The tears streamed down and those passing by in the other cars just stared, but I needed it. I also knew I needed a “happy face.” It is drink at one of the local steak houses. So that night I had crying music and happy faces… Not your usual therapy, but it helped…
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