Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Panic, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, denial, depression, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, molestation, religion, tagged Anger, Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, depression, Just say No, molestation, Mothers, Panic, Sexual Abuse, stress, teaching on June 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I found myself lost and fighting inside. It was the end of school and during our last two days of staff meetings, one of our teachers was talking about giving children the power to say “no” to peers and others. I had to tune out because in my head I kept hearing a voice screaming [...]
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Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Grandfathers, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, denial, family, granddaughters, guilt, healing, love, memories, molestation, tagged age, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, denial, forgetting, hiding, Incest, memories, molestation, Rape, remembering, revelations, Secrets, Sexual Abuse on June 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
She’s 71 years of age, and she still recalls every detail as if it took place yesterday. She tried to forget. She tried to erase it, but it never goes away.
She told me how after it stopped, she set a date in her mind to forget it. First she chose 15, but when that magical [...]
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Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Cancer, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, denial, depression, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, molestation, tagged childhood sexual abuse, clouds, comic strips, dads, darkenss, Daughters, despair with hope, Hope, Incest, love, Lynn Johnston Comic strip, motherhood, Mothers, rain, rainbow days, Surviving on June 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I use the term rainbow days, but it is not something I coined. I actually took it from Lynn Johnston’s comic strip “For Better or Worse.” In the strip, Elly is talking on the phone with a friend who has cancer. While on the phone, she and the friend are laughing, but when she hangs [...]
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Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Cancer, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Faith, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Running, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, control, dads, denial, depression, family, guilt, healing, love, memories, molestation, tagged Cancer, childhood sexual abuse, dads, darkness, Daughters, Hope, Incest, molestation, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Running, Sexual Abuse, Surviving on June 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I remember hitting the wall. It was a wall that I could not penetrate. A wall I could not get beyond. It stopped me hard. All I could do was sit on the ground and cry.
I had been running for all of my children’s life. It was my time to think and to release tensions [...]
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Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Justification, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, guilt, healing, love, memories, molestation, sin, tagged childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, chilhood innocence, dad, Daughters, escape, Fear, Incest, molestation, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, survival on June 2, 2008 | 2 Comments »
The creaking of the door comes before the sound of the footsteps. She tightens her eyes and then freezes hoping that the footsteps retreat. Then she feels the mattress depress and the blankets shift. Goosebumps rise on her skin as the blankets pull to the side. Still she refuses to participate and plays the game [...]
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