She is going off the medications. Actually, I just learned that she has already started the process. This leaves me in a worry limbo. How will she do without the medications? Will she be strong enough? Will the emotions once again take over her life? Will she try and take her life once again?
I know she is strong. She has been through a lot, but I cannot relax. I worry when she is on the medications that they get the right combination and as to whether they help or hinder. I worry when she is off the medications if her life will be constant enough and the emotional roller coaster gentle enough for her ride through life. Either way, I am here for her and support her choices….
I hang in worry limbo. . .
You are right to worry…that’s what we do…it’s our job. Just keep your eyes and arms open. You will do the right thing and you will be there when help is needed! I am thinking of you!
My dd is turning 8 tomorrow. She is in the lion’s den all weekend (her father/molester/pastor/my soon-to-be-ex). He managed to squeak past the DSS investigation. Since then, I can’t sleep, work, basically do anything!!!! I worry…worry….worry…worry…that’s all. I can’t protect my daughter. Last time she stayed with him he gave her a shower, she did not want his help. Since he wasn’t caught, he believes he is above the law.
How do you move on with your life? How do I make a nice home for my daughters (ten year old, too)? My life feels like it is shredded apart.
The doctor just put me on Lunesta to sleep and antidepressants (increased the dosage). I am afraid I may lose my job because I can’t concentrate, and I am not doing what needs to be done.
How do you make a normal life for yourself again? Do I just pretend like everything is fine while my girls are with their father? These are alot of rhetorical questions, but I am totally overwhelmed.
L
Dear L,
Dad’s who molest their daughters do know the tricks of not getting caught and looking good. I am so sorry to hear about your situation. My heart aches for you and your daughters.
You have a journey ahead of you that begins with little steps. It will be the roller coaster ride of your life. You took the first step by seeking charges. If you can find a sexual assault center near you, seek them out for advice and resources. Perhaps they can even tell you of a social worker in Children’s Services who has a reputation for handling sexual abuse situations.
Keep your stand and know that there are many of us out there who support you even if it only online. You are all in my thoughts….