The panic set in along with the crushing push for changes. It started during November and continues to push constantly at me. It started with the dishes in the cupboard. The ones we divided up when we got divorced. Keeping them reminded me of him and what he did to his own daughter. We bought [...]
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Changes: Secrets Under the Paint
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Art, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, healing, love, memories, taking sides, tagged Anger, Anxiety, Art, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, false memory, family, Fear, Happiness, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, resillency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, taking sides, Victim on March 24, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Together: Is it a Dream?
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, healing, love, memories, taking sides, tagged Anger, Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, false memory, family, Fear, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, resilliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, sucicide, Survivors, taking sides, Victim on March 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
When I started this blog, my life had been shattered. I had searched for blogs from other mothers who like me learned when their child was an adult, that the dad molested them when the child was younger. The revelation of the secret. I had searched for research and support groups for mothers like myself, [...]
Perspective: New Future and Haunting Past
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, healing, love, memories, taking sides, tagged Anger, Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, false memory, family, Fear, Happiness, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, love, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, rape resilliencey, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, surviviors, taking sides, Victim on March 17, 2008 | 2 Comments »
As time passes, new thought and views come into perspective. She wanted me to call her more and keep in touch more. So, after a weekend of being busy, I called and we had a great, quick chat. The tension from the session had dissipated and an even ground once again seemed a reality.
Since the [...]
Breaking Me
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Cancer, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, healing, love, memories, taking sides, tagged Anger, Anxiety, blame, Cancer, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, family, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, love, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, taking sides, Victim on March 15, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I am tired and worn. It has taken over my life and at times I feel that it has become a cancer for which there is no hope or cure. Everything circles around it. I am like the clown at the circus balancing swirling plates on the ends of sticks held up by my hands [...]
Wearing Me Down…
Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, family, healing, love, memories, taking sides, tagged Anxiety, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, memories, Mothers, Rape, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on March 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am worn and tired. I am ready to give up. I keep fighting. I keep supporting, but it is not going anywhere. No progress is being made. I tell myself I can’t quit. I tell myself this is not about me, but about my daughter and my family. I need to be the strong [...]
The Eternal “Why?”
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, healing, love, memories, religion, taking sides, tagged Anxiety, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, memories, Mothers, Rape, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on March 13, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I cannot shake the session last night. I want to help my daughter and I support her, but the sessions take a toll. He molested her, but I am put under the flame for everything I ever did as a mother. Well not everything, but any little thing that I did that she did not [...]
Keep Busy: Fighting Anxiety
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, false memory, family, healing, love, memories, taking sides, tagged Anxiety, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, memories, Mothers, Rape, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on March 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Keep busy and work. These words serve as my mantra today as I wait for the family therapy session tonight. Last time it hit me like a freight train, but in the long run it was good to deal with the issues brought up.
Since this is the first time my husband will be going. The [...]
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This blog is the writings of a mother who finds out from her 23 year old daughter, that she was molested (from age 7 to age 11 or 12) by her dad and was told "Not to tell, especially not to tell your Mom." My heart aches and within this blog, and I hope to start a dialogue with other mothers who have gone through the same thing...Archives
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