I am angry at the medical profession. By law they are suppose to report any suspected child abuse, but they failed to do this with my daughter.
The first time it came up, a doctor at a children’s hospital asked her if she had been touched inappropriately by someone. She denied it. The doctor asked again [...]
Archive for January, 2008
Failure to Report: I am Angry!
Posted in Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, family, healing, memories, taking sides, tagged childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, Enablers, family, Fear, healing hope, Incest, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, taking sides on January 30, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Distance: She’s All Grown Up
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, family, healing, memories, tagged Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, Enablers, family, Fear, healing, hope life stories, Incest, memories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on January 28, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I feel the distance. It pulls at my heart and keeps my mind constantly worried. I do not see her on a regular basis, so I cannot evaluate how she is doing. I e-mail and I call, but it only provides glimpses into her life—her recovery, her healing. She is an adult living in her [...]
She Always…
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, family, healing, memories, religion, tagged Anxiety, childhood memories, childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, depression, Emotions, family, Fear, healing, Incest, Life Stories, memories, Mothers, Rape, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on January 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
She always feels it,
Flashbacks and nightmares,
Intruding into her mind.
She always fears it,
His lingering control,
Hiding in her soul.
She always recalls it,
Dreaded forced intrusions,
Assaulting her body.
She always bears it,
Scars inside and out,
Marking her existence.
She always has it,
Lurid childhood memories,
Raping her life.
It Could Be Someone You Know
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, family, healing, memories, tagged Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, Divorce, Emotions, family, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, memories, Mothers, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors on January 25, 2008 | 5 Comments »
When you ask if someone knows a sexual predator, they usually say no. They have heard of them in the news or on television. They may have even gone to the sexual predator website to see if one is living near their home. They see the pictures on the Website and in the paper. Usually [...]
Speckles of Light
Posted in Anxiety, Cancer, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Faith, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, dads, denial, depression, family, healing, memories, tagged childhood sexual abuse, Choices, dads, Daughters, denial, depression, Emotions, Faith, family, healing, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on January 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
As I struggled through the day yesterday, I listened to music and taught my classes. The darkness remained inside and I could not shake it. I wanted to forget, but little things caught me off guard and the darkness remained—a book I read to my own children, a song, a piece of art, the smile [...]
I am Struggling…
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, depression, healing, memories, tagged Anxiety, childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, depression, Fear, Incest, Mothers, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors on January 23, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I am lost. I am overwhelmed. I am fighting for moments of peace. I am fighting for an escape, but it does not come. There is no escape. This is my new reality. Sadness I fought off before, now flows through my veins. I have never felt more alone or more abandoned. I am trying [...]
Behind the Facade
Posted in Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Divorce, Emotions, Enablers, Faith, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, dads, denial, false memory, family, healing, memories, religion, taking sides, tagged childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, dads, Daughters, deacon, family, images, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Rape, Sexual Abuse on January 22, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I was married to a man who belongs to the church of Christ. I was married to him, but he was married to his faith, his stature in the congregation, and to all the members. Only after all of them, did I come in as his wife along with his children. To everyone we were [...]
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This blog is the writings of a mother who finds out from her 23 year old daughter, that she was molested (from age 7 to age 11 or 12) by her dad and was told "Not to tell, especially not to tell your Mom." My heart aches and within this blog, and I hope to start a dialogue with other mothers who have gone through the same thing...Archives
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