Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, childhood sexual abuse, dads, denial, family, healing, memories, tagged childhood sexual abuse, dads, Daughters, Incest, Mothers, protection, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Sisters on December 31, 2007 | 7 Comments »
She lived her life hiding the secret. She was asked and encouraged to share, but she kept it. Her therapist calls her the secret keeper and they laugh. She kept it a secret so she could live. She kept it a secret to protect her sisters. She kept it a secret to keep her family [...]
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Posted in Cancer, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Hope, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, New Year, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, church of Christ, dads, denial, family, healing, memories, taking sides, tagged beilef, Cancer, childhood sexual abuse, Choices, churc of Christ, Emotions, Hope, Incest, memories, New Year, optimism, Sexual Abuse, taking sides on December 31, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Great Lake Swimmers sing gently in the background. The music fills the air as the day before the new year hangs on. Events of the year flash by. New grandchildren, days of snow not expected, family visiting, and celebrating life. The darker events slowly float by leaving a lingering sadness and tears. A sister in-law learning [...]
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Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, healing, memories, tagged Daughters, Incest, Life Stories, momories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors on December 31, 2007 | 1 Comment »
The mind fills with questions and images. I see my daughter laying on the floor with multiple slashes on her arm. Her blood coating a serrated edged knife only a little ways from her lifeless body. Her screams of not wanting to live fill my ears even when I am sitting in silence. There is no silence for [...]
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Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, church, church of Christ, dads, denial, family, healing, memories, taking sides, tagged church of Christ, dogma, family, Fear, Incest, nightmares, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors on December 30, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
It pierced the quietness of the night, disturbing all those around. It was a scream from a sleeper. A scream for help and uncertainty. A scream of fear. A loving arm reached out and held the screamer while murmuring over and over that the screamer was safe. Sleep quickly took back over. In the morning [...]
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Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, dads, denial, healing, taking sides, tagged dads, Daughters, denial, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors on December 28, 2007 | 2 Comments »
Recently I attended a therapy session with my youngest daughter. We talked a lot about our family. I was also told that there is anger towards the dad for the sexual abuse. Nothing new there. I was also told that someday my daughter may work through it and resolve it coming to a resolution with [...]
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Posted in Angels, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Lyrics, Mothers, Music, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, denial, memories, tagged angel, Daughters, Incest, Lyrics, memories, Mothers, Music, Sexual Abuse, Suicide on December 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
The words seeped out of the speaker overhead as I stood in the aisle looking at frozen foods. I was not prepared to hear them, but there they were all around me in their melodic intrusion into my head. I took a deep breath and fought the impulse to run out of the store, and [...]
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Posted in Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Fear, Happiness, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, denial, family, tagged denial, Emotions, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, secret, Sexual Abuse, Survivors on December 26, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
The sleep that evaded me earlier, now comes easily–too easy. A lack of energy has taken over and I find myself asleep on the couch with the television going in the background as hours tick away. I force myself to get dressed and move about. Perhaps a trip out of the house is needed, but [...]
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