Posted in Daughters, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, denial, false memory, family, healing, memories, taking sides, tagged , Daughters, denial, false memory, Incest, memories, memory, Sexual Abuse, Sisters, taking sides on November 29, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
You say you do not want to get caught in the middle. You do not want to take sides. I could have handled it if you had told me you did not believe either your sister the accuser/victim or your dad the accused/predator who denies any wrong doing, but you do not. You are not neutral. You have chosen sides. You are saying you [...]
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Posted in Daughters, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, church, family, healing, tagged , Belief, church, healing, Incest, pain, Sexual Abuse, survivor, Trust on November 28, 2007 | 3 Comments »
I am slowing sinking in deep water with a constant struggle to rise to the top and grab a gulp of air to sustain me. I fight for each breath. I know I am resilient and a fighter, but it does not make it any easier. I am the one who has to rise above [...]
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Posted in Daughters, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Sexual Abuse, family, healing, tagged Belief, Daughters, family, Incest, Life Stories, Sexual Abuse, Sisters, survivor, Trust, Truth on November 27, 2007 | 1 Comment »
Over the holidays, the family came together at our house. We laughed, we ate, we enjoyed each other, but we never talked about it together. In the kitchen, my youngest pulled me aside to tell me about her oldest sister’s response.
“Mom, she sent me an e-mail saying she does not believe me.”
“What do you mean [...]
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Posted in Anger, Anxiety, Choices, Daughters, Emotions, Enablers, Fear, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Non-Offending Parent, Rape, Resiliency, Secrets, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, Victim, childhood sexual abuse, church, church of Christ, control, dads, denial, depression, guilt, healing, memories, tagged healing, Survivors, Trust on November 25, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Trust.
It is something given and something taken.
You do not own it, but you possess it.
You have it in yourself and in someone else.
When you loose it, in yourself,
You are then in the deepest of trouble.
When you loose it in someone else.
You are lost for when you trust someone else,
You give away a bit of yourself.
You [...]
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Posted in Daughters, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Sexual Abuse, Survivors, family, healing, tagged Anxiety, Daughters, Incest, Mothers, Society, Survivors on November 17, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Time continues and at times my legs will not stay still and my mind races around unable to concentrate. Uneasiness slithers into my soul and I try to fill it with things to do, but nothing takes it away. I pace and walk around. I listen to music and sing. Yet I cannot let go [...]
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Life overwhelmed my existence last week. Too many things going on. The need for time and change took over. A trip to the local hardware store resulted in cans of paint for the living room and hallway. The weekend vanished into hours of painting with music and talk filling the air. Each stroke of the [...]
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Posted in Daughters, Incest, Life Stories, Mothers, Sexual Abuse, Suicide, Survivors, tagged Daughters, family, Incest, Mothers, Sexual Abuse, step-dads, stories, Suicide on November 9, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I just added a new page to this blog and started telling the story. Writing it took over a week. At times, the writing seemed helpful, while at other times it hurt so much, that I would close my laptop and cry. Part one is done with more parts to come as I share the [...]
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